“Dear Baby I Never Met,
I never got to see your face, but I’ve imagined it more times than I could count.
I was never able to wrap you in a blanket and breathe you in.
I never felt your tiny fingers grasp mine, but I’ve closed my eyes and felt your warmth.
I never experienced the deep bond of breastfeeding you.
I never got to see your first smile, your first laugh, or even hear your first cry.
I will never get to comfort you when you’re sad, or scared, or hurt.
But I still love you.
I’m still your mother.
My heart still aches and yearns for you.
Even though you only survived within my womb for a few months, my heart still longs for you.
I carried you.
I carried you under my heart, within the safety of my body.
I knew you.
You are my child.
I loved you from the moment I saw two pink lines on that test.
I loved you with a deep, fierce love; and I cared for you in all the ways I could while you rested within me.
And when I began losing you, when you started to leave my body much too early, a part of me went with you.
So, even though you’re in a better place.
Even though Jesus gets to comfort your every tear.
Even though He got to witness your first smile, your first laugh, your first words.
A piece of my heart will always be with you.
The day you left my body, my soul changed forever.
I carry you with me everywhere I go.
And I hope as you sit in heaven and watch over your earthly family down here, you feel our love.
I hope you know you would have fit right in with us.
I hope you feel us.
Because we will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your Mama”
