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<\/p>\n\u201cI like to write at night. You know, it\u2019s quiet. Calm. I can concentrate. I can really think about what I want to say with no interruptions. Well, I guess that\u2019s not totally true. Sometimes the dog snores. Sometimes I hear a noise. Sometimes I can hear my teenager in the kitchen microwaving pizza rolls. And when that happens, I always call out to her. She\u2019s the nicest that time of night. Well-fed, well-rested. Cuddly, even. Kinda like a gremlin. You have to take advantage of the sweet times before they go absolutely nuts.<\/p>\n
So, just the other night as I was writing, I heard the accustomed sound of the whirl of the microwave and I did what I always do. I called her name. Not once, not twice but five times with no answer. A meek, \u2018it\u2019s me\u2019 came from the kitchen. A familiar voice, but unfamiliar at the same time. Clearly, it wasn\u2019t my kid. I sat up, yet before I could jump out of bed with my billy-club to beat down the intruder, a teenager appeared at my bedroom door. I knew her, of course, but I didn\u2019t know where she came from. It appears my \u2018open door policy\u2019 has been taken literally, and to be honest, I am ok with that. I am ok that kids feel like they have a safe place in my home and can use the microwave whenever they want.<\/p>\n
But, let\u2019s be honest. I don\u2019t hate it when they leave.<\/p>\n
Just a few weekends ago, they did just that. My daughter went away for the weekend with friends. I came home from work, and everything was just as I left it. My make-up wipes were still in my bathroom. I knew where the remote was. Nothing was stolen or moved or used without permission. There were no dishes in the sink or crumbs on the counter. The pillows on the couch were still in the same place and there weren\u2019t ten half-drunk soda cans or water bottles strewn around.<\/p>\n
I heard the angels singing as I walked around the house and there was nobody there to demand anything from me. I changed out of my work clothes and channeled my inner \u2018Risky Business\u2019-era Tom Cruise and slid around on the floors with wine glass in hand. I played MY music and danced while I ate ice cream out in the open that I normally have to eat in the closet so nobody will ask for a bite. I talked on the phone without interruption and took a bath without locking the door. I stayed up and watched TV and didn\u2019t once have to yell at anybody or check my watch to see if they made it home by curfew. I slept until noon and sipped coffee on the porch while singing off key with nobody complaining. Well, except the dogs. They might have given me a few dirty looks. Did I mention my neighbor is a saint?<\/p>\n
I know what you\u2019re all thinking. That someday, I\u2019m going to miss it. Someday, I am going to miss the sweet sounds of thumping and big feet running around the kitchen. I\u2019m going to miss the bad rap music, hair in the sink, sarcastic responses and shirts on the laundry room floor.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Yeah, probably. But, what I miss more is the life I was supposed to have. I\u2019ve already sent three adult kids out into the world. They\u2019re great. Two in the military, one in college, and I just have the one hanging on at home for a few more years. To be honest, I think she likes having all her friends at the house because it reminds her of what family is. It reminds her of what beautiful chaos is. I\u2019ve written before about how that all changed when my husband died from pancreatic cancer. We had plans after the kids flew the coop. We were going to travel and retire and laugh and love for the next 50 years. And, now he\u2019s gone and our daily family of six has dwindled down to just me and her.<\/p>\n
So, as much as I love my peace, and as much as I love the quiet and things being in their place, I think I love the craziness more. When my husband was alive, I was sure I wouldn\u2019t have \u2018empty nest syndrome.\u2019 I was going to hold the door open and shove them out one by one until he and I were alone, blissfully watching Netflix and eating takeout. But now, I don\u2019t know. Now, I just want to feel it again.<\/p>\n
So, I\u2019m going to keep my doors open, and the fridge well stocked. I am going to do my best to laugh at the shenanigans and give them lots of gas money so they can leave sometimes. Because, while I want to enjoy every crazy moment of every upside-down day, I also want to eat my ice cream in peace. I guess life is all about balance, right? Even with it being completely different than what I thought it would be, it\u2019s still amazing. And while I wish my husband was here to see it, I know that he would not want me to waste my time here wishing he was. So, nobody tell him that I do \u2013 and I\u2019ll just keep living.<\/p>\n
I hope you do, too.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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