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That gut-wrenching, hard to breathe feeling.<\/p>\n
Because I was that girl. The girl that saw yet ANOTHER pregnancy announcement on my newsfeed and just rolled her eyes. The girl that felt sick to her stomach because it wasn\u2019t me doing the announcing. The girl that was so angry that you didn\u2019t even have to try\u2026 It was an \u2018accident.\u2019 The girl that would cry behind closed doors because my heart was so broken that my body wouldn\u2019t produce a miracle like yours would.<\/p>\n
I get it.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m so sorry.<\/p>\n
I know seeing a pregnancy announcement yet again has made you an emotional hot mess.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m so sorry.<\/p>\n
I know your heart is breaking into a million pieces all the while you are digging way down deep to express just an ounce of joy for the parents to be.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m so sorry.<\/p>\n
I know the ugly jealous feeling all too well. The kind of feeling that makes you feel like you\u2019re back in high school, and it isn\u2019t a feeling you are proud of.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m so sorry.<\/p>\n
This season of our lives has been hard. I\u2019m talking all capital letter HARD. It\u2019s been ugly, heartbreaking, and full of hope that ends in despair. And while I wouldn\u2019t have particularly chosen this route for our life, I am learning to be thankful for what the Lord has taught me through my 17 months of infertility.<\/p>\n
He has taught me to have faith.<\/p>\n
And not the faith I thought that I had\u2026 He has instilled in me the kind of faith that moves mountains\u2026 because let\u2019s be real: conceiving is an absolute M-I-R-A-C-L-E. In the small amount of research I have done, I have learned just what all has to happen for a baby to be formed. And wow\u2026 It\u2019s such a one in a million miracle. Choosing to have faith in one of the darkest times of my life has allowed me to keep my eyes on Him rather than dwelling in my own sorrow. Because to have faith means to completely trust in\u2026 I choose everyday, multiple times a day, to believe that my God is for me and wants to grant me the desires of my heart. I have learned that I need His presence more than I need His answers and while I may not have all the answers, they have already been written by the most high God.<\/p>\n
He has taught me patience.<\/p>\n
Which is the worst. Waiting is no fun. But in my waiting, my eyes have been opened. They have seen the devastation and the depression that takes place while you wait. The unexplainable sadness that completely overwhelms every inch of your body. But in my waiting\u2026. oh how I\u2019ve seen just a glimpse of what Jesus sees in us. Waiting for us to draw closer to Him\u2026 waiting for us to choose what is right\u2026 waiting for us to just be still in His presence. While waiting may not be what you\u2019d choose, it is necessary to realize the miracle that will unveil before your very eyes.<\/p>\n
He has taught me compassion.<\/p>\n
My heart has completely changed. I see you over there holding that sweet baby in the nursery longing and dreaming of the day you hold your own. I see you crying at baby dedication when the pastor talks about how big of a blessing children are. I see you cringe when you get asked once again when you\u2019re going to have a baby and you just want to punch them in the face and cry all at the same time. I see you avoiding your pregnant friend like the plague because it\u2019s just too hard\u2026 and there was a time when I did not even notice any of it. I have seen the other side, and I get it. There was a time when I wouldn\u2019t have checked on a friend who had a miscarriage, or lost their baby due to unforeseen circumstances, or who can\u2019t conceive no matter how hard they\u2019ve tried, or the one whose adoption process has fallen through once again because I didn\u2019t want to bring up any pain\u2026 But I\u2019ve seen just how therapeutic it is to have someone who just cares. I mean truly cares. Someone that will take just a minute out of their day to check in with you and won\u2019t accept \u2018doing good\u2019 for an answer- because we all know that\u2019s a lie. Someone that will drag you out of the house for some coffee, and depending on the day, will either sit there in the silence or will let you pour your heart out, and they won\u2019t tell a soul. It is SO important to surround yourself with trustworthy people who get it because without it, it is a dark place that the Lord has not called you to walk alone.<\/p>\n
My time of infertility has been an emotional roller coaster. Times of hope and times of heartbreak. But through it all, the Lord has never left my side. He has been there even when I didn\u2019t want to acknowledge Him. He has been there through my excitement and my daydreaming. And He has been there through my heartbreak and despair.<\/p>\n
But I know with all of my heart that even if the Lord didn\u2019t bless us with a baby, my God is sovereign and He hears my cries\u2026 the pleading prayers, the constant tears, the angry outbursts, the jealous fits, and even the moments you feel like giving up. I\u2019ve come to realize just how much He loves me in the process.<\/p>\n
So here is my prayer for those of you in your waiting period\u2026<\/p>\n
I pray your hormone levels even out to what they are supposed to be in Jesus name. I pray for regular cycles. I pray for clear Fallopian tubes\u2026 no blockages of any kind. I am speaking healing over your ovaries. I pray for your uterine lining to be strengthened. I pray for any and all endometriosis to be non-existent. I pray your PCOS is healed or easily controlled. I pray against any cysts that may hinder your ability to get pregnant. I pray for your follicles to mature and your eggs to grow. I pray for you to ovulate at just the perfect time. I pray for the sex to be fun and for your love for your spouse to grow so deeply. I pray for his sperm to reach your mature and healthy eggs and for them to fertilize at just the right moment. I pray the healthy follicle embeds into your uterus and grows into the most perfect miracle(s)\u2026 I pray for your hearts to be softened and for you to not feel alone. Because you aren\u2019t. I pray for your faith to deepen, your patience to increase, and for compassion to flood your veins. My prayer is for the Lord bless you and keep you\u2026 may His face shine upon you. May He show you favor and give you unexplainable peace.<\/p>\n
So, this is for the girl who got another negative pregnancy test this morning\u2026 to the girl who has no idea why this is so hard for her\u2026 to the girl whose heart is so bitter\u2026 to the girl who has lost a child due to miscarriage or heartbreaking circumstance\u2026 to the girl whose adoption process has failed once again\u2026 to the girl who has one child but can\u2019t seem to get pregnant again\u2026 I love you. I am so sorry you are going through this, and I know it\u2019s just not fair. But, I am so thankful for your hearts and for what the Lord is teaching you through one of the most difficult times of your life. This does not define you. Jesus has already done that. Don\u2019t miss what could be the greatest journey of your life because it isn\u2019t exactly what you pictured. Don\u2019t let the bitterness and jealousy flood your veins distracting you from what the Lord wants to accomplish through your circumstances.<\/p>\n
Thank you Lord for showing me how to use what the enemy meant for destruction and showing me, through the pain, just how much you love me\u2026 and I pray that He shows you too. I am praying that when your miracle arrives, they are the beautiful ending scene to the story the Lord has written for you. Don\u2019t miss it. This is a story worth telling.<\/p>\n
476 days of infertility.
\nThousands of dollars in medical bills.
\n11 months of Clomid.
\nInjection after injection.
\nPrescription after prescription.
\nUltrasound after ultrasound.
\nHundreds of needle pricks.
\n5 IUIs.
\nMonths of failed treatments.<\/p>\n
And 2 pink lines to remind me how faithful my God is in the midst of it all and that it was worth every single second.\u201d<\/p>\n
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